i can't believe it's 2009. time really does go by faster when you get old :) 2008 was a good year, all told - there were some seriously rough patches, but i feel like i got spit out the other end of it in pretty good shape. i'm in such a positive place now - it's a nice way to start a new year.
i never did go in much for new years resolutions. they always seemed to bring more negativity than anything else, because they were always about "fixing" something i didn't like about myself. they inevitably arose from some negativity i was nurturing (i'm not thin enough, i'm not disciplined enough, i'm not a good enough friend, i'm lazy, etc.), and were always way too intense and lofty to be realized in any real or lasting way, so they only brought me disappointment and some seriously mean inner dialog. so i threw the whole idea of resolutions out the window a few years ago. this year though, it seems that a different kind of resolution has snuck its way past my anti-resolution guards. it's not so much a resolution as a recognition of something that has been brewing for a while, and that the beginning of a new year is a nice way to bring it more clearly into the light. it's a pretty simple idea; i am being kind to myself. i'm forgiving myself, and more than anything, cultivating a loving attitude. and it's having huge and unexpected results. i'm happier, more relaxed, and more motivated to work my butt off. it's basically pretty rad.
so anyway, here's to a new year and a new kind of resolution. may 2009 bring you peace of mind, and may you be super duper sweet to yourself and others!